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        Above all else, guard your 
    heart for from it all else flows.

      

Proverbs 4:23

Grief is Loud

5/24/2015

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Grief is loud
   Very loud
It only looks quiet
  Around others…
      As I hold it at bay
But grief is very loud
  It screams in my ears!
  It screams in my head!
  It screams in my heart!

My whole body is screaming
Every fiber of my being screams in grief
   Deep, agonizing, gut-wrenching grief
Grief is relentless
  Does it ever end?
If so, someone please tell me when.
I’m ready

Not ready to forget my love
But ready for the pain in my heart to stop
My heart is broken in half
It is blown apart
  Blood is gushing
I’m bleeding-out emotionally
Yes, Grief is loud
  Very, very loud
Even years later,
Sometimes, Grief is still very loud

Grief causes tears to fall
Grief causes my voice to scream
Grief causes my body to wrack in pain
Grief causes my brain to ask “Why?”
But grief lends no understanding
Grief brings confusion
   Sadness
   Frustration
   Anger
Grief is anything but quite!
Grief is loud
    Very loud
    Very, very loud
And Grief hurts
Did I tell you, Grief hurts?

  Oh yes…it does definitely hurt
Grief is loud
Is it possible to quite it?
  How can I?
Embrace the pain…
  Feel it….every fiber of it
Hold it…
   Experience it…
   Notice it…
And let God hold you
While you comfort the birth of this new baby
…Grief
Grief is loud…

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Welcome Home!

5/23/2015

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The year was 1968, the month was December. Sgt. Greenberg was about 3 weeks short coming home from his second tour in Viet Nam. They had been in the field for a week to ten days on a Company size operation.  On December 1, the guys received their Thanksgiving meal in the field.  One of Sgt. Greenberg’s buddies from another platoon went back to get more milk when mortars and RPG’s (a rocket-propelled grenade known as rocket launcher; a shoulder-fired, anti-tank weapon system that fires rockets equipped with an explosive war head) started coming in all over them.  By the time it was over, there were 10 or 12 guys wounded and three are dead.                

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In Honor of a True Hero

5/23/2015

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Lampasas Dispatch Record
written by:  Debbie McCandless Smith (2006)

This was written by one of my best friends and sent to the Lampasas newspaper.  I had no idea she was going to do this. What an honor for my husband.

Many people feel that in the last few years the word "hero" has been overused.  However, on May 16, 2006 a true American Hero was buried with full military honors in Lampasas.

I have known Eugene Greenberg Jr. as long as I can remember.   Growing up in Lampasas in the 1950's and 1960's, you knew just about everybody in town.  I knew when Eugene enlisted in the U.S. Army at age 19, and I remember that near the end of his second tour in Vietnam he was seriously wounded.  Eugene lost his left leg and severely injure his left arm.

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From A Veteran

5/23/2015

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Written by my Beloved.

             How do you describe the impact war has on the human psyche?  The problem arises because there are so many different emotions to deal with.  When your 18, 19, or 20 years old and you should be chasing your life’s dreams, instead you are dealing with the realities of war…life and death.

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Contentment

5/18/2015

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Contentment?  What exactly is that?  I have come to realize contentment can be… Being content just because I am pleasing to God at this moment in my life.  That I am pleasing to Him in all I do…  to be able to say that he was honored and glorified in a particular situation…that is my contentment.  Contentment is contentment with an "Amen," and not a question mark, not wondering where He is, but because He is.  He has given me of himself, I owe him everything.  Knowing he is pleased is my contentment! Knowing he is pleased.  Knowing I'm righteous because of His blood that covers me.  If he is pleased, then I am content.  Perhaps this is the perspective I need. 

      Thank you, Jesus.

     








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It's a Divine Conspiracy

5/16/2015

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After reading that title, you might be asking…what are you talking about?  Well…I’m glad you asked.  When God created this ole earth, he place the physical laws in place to govern our world; gravity, the pull of the moon on the ocean tides, the rotation of the earth, which causes our days, nights and seasons, etc.  Scripture tells us that God hangs the earth on nothing (Job 26:7).  The laws of nature are consistent and logical, because the Creator is consistent and logical. We can trust that the same physics which worked yesterday will also work today. This principle is foundational to the scientific process. Furthermore, God created our minds with an impressive (though finite) ability to interpret the data around us, and draw logical conclusions. We are therefore able to discover (at least to some extent) the ordinances of the universe by observation, experimentation, and logical reasoning.   Likewise, just as God has orchestrated all of these laws to govern the universe, he also set into motion certain spiritual laws to govern our relationships. 


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May 13th, 2015

5/13/2015

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 There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death.    Prov 16:25

I ventured out on Life’s sea,
It has been called that from time and eternity,
I move and live and take my breath,
Oblivious to the tangled web I will weave,


I made my plans, I sewed my seeds,
Not realizing, as I sow I will reap
I’m not concerned; I know what I want and where I am going
As I make my plans for how my life will be.


I continue to chart my life’s course in this sea,
Sometimes in forbidden waters, just to see what I can see,
I think my mind is making the choices,
Oblivious to the silent beating of my heart’s tapestry.

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